I don't know what it is about my life that is sooo tiring. Even though things are getting better it still feels as though I can't get anything right in any situation I get myself into. God, I just wish that things would get better and stay that way insted of always being in a constant flux, they get better than immediatly worse. Maybe it was something that was done in a past life or maybe it's something that I need to learn but it all sucks and nothing seems to make it better. If only I could dissapear, take what I need and run of somewhere that no one will find me, change my name and start all over. (sigh) if only it were that easy. But who knows maybe something amazing will come along and happen that will drasticly change my life and the way that I look at things. There's always the hope of something better around the corner even if it doesn't always come. I wounder if I can take this and make it a song. I'll have to go try.

God bless,
Slayer